Milena

"Don't let yourself down for others to love you." She tells me that when I tell her about my feelings, like when I tell her about my friends how they treat me down and they don't give me the same energy because I'm the one to my friends that tries the best to make them feel better, and my sister always tell me if they are really friends they would know how to treat you, but thank god I have some friends now, and that I removed some people from my life and brought good people to my life that value me also. My sister, she is the only person I talk to about everything that happens to me, even her, because we both keep our secrets to ourselves also give each other good advice that would help us out, and I trust her a lot because a lot of people be like I won't tell to anyone and the world already hears what I tell them, but my sister, she keeps it to herself forever. She always asks me how I'm doing and makes sure I'm okay. "I want you to be proud by yourself and make me proud, also our family, I just want you to focus on you school work and get those A's because that follows you for your future, everything will come later, but right now focus on your school stuff."

"Don't ever compare yourself with others because you're not them you were born to be you." She says that to me because I tell her why I don't look good like others, and she always tells me. 

There was one time that I didn't feel like anything, that I don't even like have one friend, and she tells me this.

¨You have to know everyone is fake in this world except few of as and you are one of the real people in the world. You don't lose your friends, they lost you. I know it's hard but you have to feel happy because you don't need fake people in your life, and who needs fake anyways. Ao please don't give a [thought] about these jerks, they don't deserve you at all. It's better to be alone than being with someone who is fake, and don't forget that I'm always here for you, love you." I didn't delete anything, but she wrote that for me on text because sometimes I like to say my feelings over text even though they are next to me, and that means a lot of things to me and I'm glad I have good people in my life right now who value me. I can't even compare my sister with anyone, but because no one has been like her, even my my family, even though she is my family, she not like them. Yes they do care for me, but they don't act like her. They don't ask me how I'm feeling every minute and ask me to go out, but my mom, yes she gets me whatever I want. Yes she's been next to me since I was born, but when I tell her my problem, the next minutes the whole family heard it. That's why I trust my sister more than anyone, because she keeps it to herself and I learned from her how to keep something like what they tell. It's not only that she tells me a lot of things that happen before, like a lot of things that's because my dad tells her a lot of things about this world, and she tells me that I learn a lot of things from my sister, and she tell me that we should have been twins because I'm acting like her. I remember a few months ago where I felt like I was lost and I thought nobody was next to me.

But I think that because I don't like talking about my feelings to someone. But I try to text my sister even though she was same room as me. I don't like saying out my feelings face to face because everything when I try I to say it, everything what I was trying to say becomes gone from nowhere or I well start crying because I hold onto my feelings for so long, but when I tell my sister how I feel, she gives me advice and she makes me feel a lot of better, and makes me feel I have someone that's next to me, and she really makes me feel happy.